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In my own world
People would say i am on my own world or that i am stupid . I get used to it so much that i can't feel anything . The only thing i like to do is to sit with closed eyes and doing nothing . I like to see my interior self . I like to live in my mind and thinking i fly up to the sky . I like to hear angelic voices and thinking that i fly to the sky . People from here told me to die because they misunderstand me for ** but i didn't feel nothing . Don't worry i want to die anyway but not for the reason you want me to die . Maybe if i was just disappear while sleeping and disappear from the world and people's memory who know me like i had never born . I feel like i am nothing and can't do anything about it than just accept it but i don't know if i ever accept tha fact that i feel i am nothing and other people seem to me like they are something . Tell me egoistic and jealous someone told this to me , i know i am but i don't feel nothing for this either. I kinda understand why some people end up doing drugs or alcohol. They want to get away from the world and from themselves too .
I woke up mommy and cant sleep and crying mommy cause could not find you again and my tummy hurt cause your gone mommy. I love you mommy and sorry mommy and want too be good mommy and wont do bold things again mommy and try my real best too not keep messing up mommy and make good choices mommy cause your my real mommy and im your baby girl. I need you mommy and please dont go and huggs too you mommy and please find me mommy cause need you xxxxxx
I am here sweetie don't worry . I won't leave you sweetie and I am not mad at all why should I be ? Really it's not sweetie but I insist to talk to someone sweetie . Now I am not in my house sweetie I swear to talk you a little later . Hugs sweetie .
Love you mommy and its not fair. Its sore mommy and im bored mommy and only some toys and phone mommy and mom still has my tv and ipad mommy and hate them mommy and did not even want too write letter to pastor mommy and mom made me do it and their come over again later mommy. I miss you mommy and love you my real mommy. Your baby girl mommy xxxxxx
Why she told you to write a letter to pastor sweetie ?
Mom said have shower mommy now and pastor and wife come at 7.30 mommy and put on my nightie only and have tea and pastor go bring me too bed and spank me mommy for school and other stuff mommy and mom said the letter is for pastor for hitting girl and pushing the boy and curse in church and youth group mommy. I have go mommy and its not fair mommy and need you mommy and will you please be back later mommy and im allready sore mommy. I dont care mommy cause your my real mommy anyway and im realy your baby girl mommy and better go mommy and hate them soooo much mommy and huggs you mommy and you might tuck me in mommy later xxxxxx
Were you mommy and i need you mommy and its not fair mommy and their down stairs mommy and pastor spank me with no clothes again mommy and see me again mommy and its sore mommy and mom smacked my handys first mommy and then pastor smacked me in my room mommy. I hate them mommy and need you now mommy please and i said pastor i hate him mommy and smack my ** and legs too hard mommy and for ages mommy. Pastor said he come up before they leave mommy and want hit him mommy. Love you mommy and its too sore mommy. Your my real mommy anyway and im your baby girl mommy xxxxxx
Im sorry mommy and were are you mommy and not fair i love you my mommy xxxxxx