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In my own world
People would say i am on my own world or that i am stupid . I get used to it so much that i can't feel anything . The only thing i like to do is to sit with closed eyes and doing nothing . I like to see my interior self . I like to live in my mind and thinking i fly up to the sky . I like to hear angelic voices and thinking that i fly to the sky . People from here told me to die because they misunderstand me for ** but i didn't feel nothing . Don't worry i want to die anyway but not for the reason you want me to die . Maybe if i was just disappear while sleeping and disappear from the world and people's memory who know me like i had never born . I feel like i am nothing and can't do anything about it than just accept it but i don't know if i ever accept tha fact that i feel i am nothing and other people seem to me like they are something . Tell me egoistic and jealous someone told this to me , i know i am but i don't feel nothing for this either. I kinda understand why some people end up doing drugs or alcohol. They want to get away from the world and from themselves too .
Mom said have shower mommy now and pastor and wife come at 7.30 mommy and put on my nightie only and have tea and pastor go bring me too bed and spank me mommy for school and other stuff mommy and mom said the letter is for pastor for hitting girl and pushing the boy and curse in church and youth group mommy. I have go mommy and its not fair mommy and need you mommy and will you please be back later mommy and im allready sore mommy. I dont care mommy cause your my real mommy anyway and im realy your baby girl mommy and better go mommy and hate them soooo much mommy and huggs you mommy and you might tuck me in mommy later xxxxxx
Hi sweetie . I was in shower sweetie . Really it's not fair sweetie . I wish your your mother would be kind . I wonder why she is so cruel sweetie ? Do you know or do you remember if she had a good relationship with your daddy ? I never asked you sweetie and if you want to tell . How your dad died ? Was he good with sweetie or he was like your mother in behaviour ? Pastor i think he tries (maybe) to take the role of your father but he is child molester sweetie and i don't trust him sweetie . But be careful sweetie you get spanked many times i wish to not have a problem sweetie with your legs and ** sweetie . Tell me honesty sweetie does the pastor touched you ever somewhere else than your ** and legs ?
Sorry mommy and pastor and wife gone home few minutes ago mommy and came up with mom too say good night mommy and i got angry mommy and said get out my room mommy and mom pulled my covers down mommy and smack my legs mommy. Hate them so much mommy and they said see me in youth group tomorow mommy. Passtor smacks me mommy and sometimes rubb my legs and ** mommy and says he make it bit brtter like he does own kids mommy and by accidend sometimes hand brushes down there mommy. Im sorry mommy and need you now mommy. Your baby girl mommy xxxxxx
He touch to your ** sweetie ? Sweetie he sure see sexually what he is doing . He spank you not because he wants ''to learn manners'' but because his sexual pleasure . And or mother is so stupid to understand it or she doesn't even care , i don't know why she can not see it . She is closed mind and think that a pastor is good man just because he is pastor but he is not sweetie . Don't ever let him touch your ** EVER . There is not accidend sweetie he is doing it for purpose . And don't apologise sweetie . You are very logical to me also an angel sweetheart . Hug sweetie .
And rubb your ** too ? Don't let him sweetie it's not fair angel . And the fact that he is doing the same thing to his children is kind of weird . Does he has sons or daughters sweetie ?
Were you mommy and need you mommy and sorry mommy and my daddy died mommy when im 5 mom said and sorry mommy and dont no how and daddy kind remember mommy smack my ** on my ** just mommy and hugg me then and go too bed then mommy. Mom said she got spanked when she was little and even till she was much older than me mommy. I hate them mommy and need you mommy and are you drink mommy and i wish im with you now mommy and drink loads and make me happy then mommy and my best friend just texted me mommy. I love you soooo much mommy and want you hugg me and tuck me in like mommys do on tv and wish you could rubb sting away mommy. Your baby girl mommy and miss you mommy xxxxxx
And i go bed same time as you mommy would i like realy late mommy like 2 or even later mommy and watch lots movies late and cuddle me mommy. Love you sooo much mommy xxxxxx