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In my own world
People would say i am on my own world or that i am stupid . I get used to it so much that i can't feel anything . The only thing i like to do is to sit with closed eyes and doing nothing . I like to see my interior self . I like to live in my mind and thinking i fly up to the sky . I like to hear angelic voices and thinking that i fly to the sky . People from here told me to die because they misunderstand me for ** but i didn't feel nothing . Don't worry i want to die anyway but not for the reason you want me to die . Maybe if i was just disappear while sleeping and disappear from the world and people's memory who know me like i had never born . I feel like i am nothing and can't do anything about it than just accept it but i don't know if i ever accept tha fact that i feel i am nothing and other people seem to me like they are something . Tell me egoistic and jealous someone told this to me , i know i am but i don't feel nothing for this either. I kinda understand why some people end up doing drugs or alcohol. They want to get away from the world and from themselves too .
I fell assleep again mommy and i tried too keep awake mommy for you i promise mommy. Mom call me again mommy and go for breky in few minutes mommy and it still stings mommy and hate them mommy and youth group is on later mommy and dont want go mommy. Its not fair mommy and miss.you mommyand need you. I can drink with you said i think mommy you said lots and lots and stay up till like after 2 mommy and leave school mommy. I drink moms drink sometime and feels bit good mommy and help me not think bad mommy. Love you mommy and huggs your baby girl mommy xxxxxx
At least don't drink much sweetie . I know I drunk but it was once, I mean alone in my house . Don't drink sweetie because it's bad for your health sweetie . I know you feel better but if we think that only with alcohol we feel better we will addicted to it . I hope to not happen something bad in youth group sweetie. Even if they mock stay calm and tell to an adult there so he would believe you . I said it cause to not have trouble sweetie . Hug sweetie .
Love you mommy and miss you mommy. My tummy does be happy see your texts mommy and makes me happy mommy. Mom said have lunch at two mommy and studie again mommy and hate her sooo much mommy and shes a meany mom. I hope they all die mommy and even pastor and every one in youth group mommy and its not fair mommy and dont want go youth group mommy. I drink when moms not looking mommy and want tell you truth that i do mommy nearly every day mommy and makes me feel happy mommy and sorry and makes me forget bad things mommy. Have go mommy and mom call me now and love you mommy and love your baby girl mommy xxxxxx
Hi sweetie . Sweetie please don't drink you are so young . You must not drink especially everyday . What kind of alcohol do you drink ? Sweetie alcohol maybe make you feel better but it won't bring you happiness . You will have happiness if you truly accept and like yourself . These are not theory sweetie , these are true . But i admit that loving yourself can be very difficult . Please don't drink everyday . I suppose your mother does not want you to drink . Finally she is right even to one thing . Not if she smack you sweetie but because if she doesn't want you to drink and you are not bad person when you drinking the only thing you done when you are drinking is destroy your heath . Alcohol kills sweetie .
And can bring you diseases and you are so young sweetie . If you want to calm then do it with music it's better , read a book or something else . You might be addicted . i wish to not be but pressure yourself to not drink . Please sweetie . Maybe did you ever done drugs too ? Hug sweetie .
And if you want to drink okay do it but ONLY half glass of wine . Or a small glass of wine .
Im sorry mommy and get ready for youth group and mom said if i do anything in youth group wont sit for a month mommy. I dont want go mommy and hate them all mommy and no one likes me mommy. I love you mommy and my phones go dead mommy. I want you my mommy and im your baby girl mommy xxxxxx and its not fair mommy