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Disturbing dreams
Lately I have been having disturbing dreams, and I won't go into them, but they have involved either underage people or animals, and I feel very confused and disturbed by them. I feel unclean and sickened by myself, I can't believe that I wouldn't think about someone I know and am responsible for (I am a school prefect) in that way, and it greatly disturbs me to think that I have dreamt of anything like that with her. In my dreams it feels so natural, but when I wake up I feel so wrong, I feel like I should just go and chop my ** off or something, I feel like a monster.
Maybe I'm just looking too much into my dreams, but dreams come from somewhere right? It's brought me to seriously think about how I view people in general and about what I feel, sexually speaking. I've been thinking, am I a **? That question scares me, it scares me because I think that deep down it might be true to some extent, and I don't want that to be true.
Hi, thanks for sharing your story. Always try to be honest with yourself about your sexual attractions. It took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I get aroused by fantasys I have for underage girls. By being honest I have managed my pedophilia without abusing any underage girls.