Can't get it out of my head

My wife didn't die but came close after a terrible case of food poisoning . I had to drive to her office to get all her belongings, phone , laptop and her purse and she had been rushed to the hospital. As I'm driving her phone keeps going off , I finally look at it and its a bunch of texted messages asking if everything is ok? Where are you? And one that said we said our usual spot right. I started going through her phone ,it was clear she was meeting up with an old boyfriend. I texted him back finally saying "car trouble had to get towed". I searched him out on facebook found out he was married and where his wife worked. I visited her at her flower shop told and showed her everything. We set her husband / my wife's lover up as I messaged him from my wife's phone asking him to meet at our house. Acting as my wife I told him my husband was out of town. 5pm he is pulling into the driveway , to my surprise he walked right in through the kitchen door like he owned the place. He called to my wife a few times before walking into the living room were both of us were sitting. His wife just stood up telling him he was busted and she wanted him out of the house today.I had divorce papers served on my wife while she was still recovering in the hospital.

You and his wife should have been naked and ** when he walked in the door. But this works too!

I agree! This would have been a great plan! Nice thinking.

A few years back my husband was killed in a car accident. I had never gone through his phone or snooped on his laptop before but wish I had. Looking through his phone I discovered he was in an ongoing affair with my youngest sister. She is 26, I'm 40, yes a big age difference. The worst was finding pictures of her doing oral on him , her sending him nudes and him telling her how hot she was and how much she turned him on, something he hadn't said to me in years. In a moment of rage I sent my parents all the messages she had sent my husband telling them to keep the little ** away from me. It has literally torn our family apart now with them being upset with me for involving my parents.

It is understandable spur of the moment we would all let every body know

That's cold ! Your sister is ** around with your husband and you have family members taking her side? WTH? I would have contacted everyone she knew and let them know what a ** she was!

They are mad because I sent the pictures and my dad saw them. Now that I have had some time I realize it was wrong I shouldn't have sent the pictures to my parents. I don't think my dad ever wanted to see his youngest daughter naked with a ** in her mouth and ** on her face.

Do you read her diary and ** off to the thoughts of her with this guy? Stroke it while picturing her sucking another man's ** or on her hands and knees as he slides his hard ** deep inside her ? Imagining the way she moaned as he filled her ** ** with **?

Yes I do

I bet she used to come home after he used her like a ** then had ** with you. They probably joked about how you licked her ** as his ** was leaking out of it. How she fed you sloppy seconds and you loved it.

I have strange feelings about it

What kind of feelings? does it turn you on knowing you were eating his ** out of her **? Knowing you might as well have been sucking his ** because you were tasting his ** every time you kissed your wife after she had been out with him. I think you like knowing she was a ** for other men

After my wife's death I not only found out that she cheated but found out that she had a son by one of the men she was having an affair with. We had separated after being married for two years. Unbeknownst to me she was already four months pregnant . She gave birth and the baby went to live with the father. We got back together, me having no idea any of this occurred. I found out about the boy at my wife's funeral when he now 20yrs old showed up with his father. If that wasn't a big enough shock weeks later I found journals she had kept. She had six different affairs throughout our marriage and a few one night stands one of which was with a very close friend.

Continued.. In all the time we were married I never once suspected her of cheating and I never went outside our marriage. Reading about her affairs and her openly describing how she was ** other married men , how she once seduced her sister's husband sucking him off in our kitchen while I was out in our yard with my sister in law picking apples. How she ** one of my best friends after going off birth control and had a pregnancy scare. It truly is eye opening to how deceitful a person can be. She did a wonderful job fooling me.

How does it make you feel now knowing what she was doing , Do you sit there imagining her with them ?

It's hard not to imagine her with them when the journal entries are so descriptive . She described everything from long drawn out love making sessions to her meeting a guy in a bar and before the night was over "sucking his ** like a **"( her words ) while sitting in the bar parking lot. The worst part is how she talked about coming home from the nights out and crawling into bed with me and initiating ** mostly just oral ,her sucking me off as it released any feelings of guilt she had. She also wrote about how she had one of the most intense ** of her life coming home and having ** with me after just ** my friend. She mused "did he just think I was that wet? Could he taste Jerry's ** while he was eating me. I felt I'll after reading that.

I feel bad for you , I myself find it hard to handle what my wife has done , But some times thinking about it turns me on it didn't at first , They cant hurt us any more , perhaps thinking about what they was doing can help us get through it , I don't know

You must be devastated , That his hard for you remember you done nothing wrong you can walk tall . And you never had any signs or suspicions

I never had any idea she was having these affairs.

Do you sit there thinking about your wife with them , And how does it make you feel