Confession: I can't control my sexual need.
I have been married for more than five years. We have two kids. It was an arrange marriage and I was very young when I got married. He is in a job where he has to transport goods, so many times he has to remain out of town. I am from a very conservative family so I was never allowed to go out partying at night or drink. I met a young guy two years ago. I found him very attractive. At first I was little flirt, but soon we became friends. I went to a night club for the first time with him only. We became very close. Many times I used to stay in his place at night. We used to do many sexual fantasy, experiments, swinging.
But when he asked me to leave my husband and live with him as he was going to USA, then I found out that I love my family and do care about my husband. Me and my husband are not sexually compatible but I think I love him as he is only person I know after my parents. He took care of me when no one was there.
But at same time I has some sexual needs. I am in a dilemma.
I am waiting for your comments. Please help.