My heart belongs to one woman. Somehow

Perhaps you should have treated her like a human being. Listened to her, gotten to know her, silly trivial things like that!
Instead of being a coward.
Instead of insisting things be done YOUR way-- without so much as bothering to disclose what "your" way even was. (Double whammy there)
**Instead of speculating and listening to gossip, then deciding that the off-base conclusions you came to were stone-cold Facts!**
Instead of treating her worse than a dog and then crying to the rest of the world that she "abandoned" you. (A little like you did with this stupid confession.)

Also, learn the differences between the following:
- Gaslighting vs communicating with your "loved" one FtF
- A person's traits vs your own mental constructs
- "Come to me" vs "go away" (this is a big one for you, "lover")
- Manipulation vs respect
- Married vs "available"

You have a LOT of work to do, so get on it. Maybe then we can meet again... in about eight or so lifetimes.

i'm gonna miss the trees

Thanks.