I want to die

I want to die. I don't think I'm depressed, I just hate this world. The only things keeping me from suicide is 1) I do believe in God and am afraid of going to H*** and 2) I don't want to hurt my family. But I pray every day not to wake up or to have an accident or illness that takes me. I actually get extremely jealous when I hear someone has a terminal illness. Why can't it be me? i have begged foe this. I just don't want to be here anymore

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  • I'll give you a perfect reason to live. Give me a 200 K $, because I really need them for starting a new job and employing at least 1 person in the beginning. That way you'll have your money properly invested and if things go well, I'll rerturn you the full amount. Now here's the catch - I will return you your money, but certainly not immediately and not anytime soon. In other words, you'll have to live up to at least 65 to be paid in full. Fair deal? I'm dead serious.

  • Join the club. The woman I loved know hates me and never wants to speak to me ever again. We were together for more than eight years. I miss her deeply. My days and nights are terrible. I wish I was dead. I mix whisky and pain killers hoping I won't wake up the next day. But I'm still here. I think I will take like thirty or so 40 mg of oxycontin and crush them up and mix into a bottle of Jack Daniels single barrel and just up end the bottle. My biggest fear is not getting it done right. I should probably stick a pistol in my mouth and pull the trigger. Your not alone. I hate life now. Maybe I could pay someone to do it for drugs and some money.

  • I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Suicide is not the answer and it will certainly hurt your family and friends, if you even try. To be thinking that you don't want to be here is a pretty good indication that you're dealing with some depression. But maybe there are somethings you can start doing to get you out of the space you're in to wanting to live and be happier than you are now. The first would be to see a therapist. It always helps to talk to someone about whatever is happening in your life. Taking care of yourself can also help change your mood. Eating healthy food, getting enough sleep, drinking water, exercising, limiting sugar and soda. Also, making sure you get outside - if you're not look into taking vitamin D. Also, even taking a little trip with a friend (not sure how old you are) and go away for the weekend. You have to be proactive in doing things to make positive changes in your life. It's not always going to be easy.

  • Even i have a purpose less life

  • God and H*** don’t exist, so don’t worry about that. Go try and live for a bit before you consider ending it. What have you got to lose?

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  • God doesn't existπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

  • God does exist

  • πŸ˜‚ F***** h*** manπŸ˜‚ Thanks for making my day

  • And I don't why h-ell censored.

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  • Go to Syria and do something worth while. Kill as many terrorists as you can before you get shot

  • Finish the race, there is a God

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