How do I control the anger I feel?
I'm putting this here but I kinda don't want replies, I just need to get it off my chest, because I have no one to talk to, and I got to put it somewhere before I explode. I hate someone who absolutely ruins me and is always fighting and being rude. I feel things way too much, it's always been like that, it's sadly the way I am and I don't know why. And I get offended with this person's rudeness and lack of consideration for my feelings, I've tried talking to them about what they're doing and they never listen. I have no way of getting them out of my life. I don't have someone to confide in and try to make things better, I can't do anything and my life feels helpless, as if I could barely take control of things. I'm worried that I can't do what I want with them without facing consequences. They deeply offend me, somehow always end up blaming me for everything, never hear me when I point out how they hurt me, and I feel like they need to pay for their mistakes with their life before I straight up go and kill myself to end it all. I can't stop crying, almost drowing myself in my tears and no one helps me, this person is crazy about religious/paranormal stuff and then, thinks I am possessed and that there's a "demon" inside me just because of my anger, when in fact the blame is all on them for being so horrible. No demon could ever make me feel what I feel, and I for one don't believe in them. What the f*** do they want me to do if I feel things like that and they're only making it worse? My chest hurts so bad, I want it to stop, but all they care about is their pathetic, useless little life, as if they were the only one with problems. Why won't they just die and leave me alone? I hate my life thanks to them. I don't know how to be happy anymore. I don't know how to open the door and go outside, there's only here and I'm stuck with intrusive and hurtful thoughts. Why does this happen to me all the time? I can't. I'll stop typing because there's no way to clean my tears. Everything is sad and painful and so blurry