I intend to plead guilty despite being innocent
My roommate and I had shared an off-campus apartment ever since the beginning of college. I'm 21/F and she would have been twenty-two this year. However, two months ago, she was killed in a car accident. And as bad as that was, it was only the beginning of my current nightmare.
It turns out she was dealing drugs. Not illegal ones, but prescription drugs she'd illegally obtained. Y'know, stuff like Ritalin and Adderall. The kind of stuff people use when they've got a lot of studying to do. The cops who responded to the accident found them in her car. There was sufficient quantities for them to determine that they weren't legally obtained and that she must be dealing.
Long story short, they got a warrant and raided our apartment. They found even more drugs in her room and some that were stashed away in our living room. I swear I had no idea they were there or that she was a dealer! I know no one will believe that, but it's the truth. Worst of all, on the night of the accident and while I was in the shower, she'd borrowed my phone without permission to text one of her clients. That was enough to convince the cops I was involved. I was arrested and am currently out on bail.
My parents got me a lawyer, of course. He's advised me to plead no contest as there's a plea deal on the table. If I take the deal, I'll spend two years in prison instead of the decade I would otherwise be looking at.
After wrestling with this, I've decided it's not worth the risk. I intend to plead guilty and do time for a crime I didn't commit. My parents are against this and want me to fight it. I get it. Who wants to see their only kid in prison? But I trust my lawyer's judgment. I don't want to fight this, lose, and spend ten years kicking myself in the butt for not taking the deal while I could. I just want to get this over with and get on with my life. With good behavior, I could be out in just eighteen months. I know my parents won't like it, but ultimately, this is my decision to make and my mind is made up.
I'm trying not to panic too much about prison, but I admit it's hard. I have no experience with being locked up. If anyone has any advice on how to deal with life behind bars, I'd love to hear it. Thanks for listening. It feels good to get this all out.