I have a crush on my former boss and it's driving me insane.
Listen, I know alot of people go through these things and it's the world's oldest fantasy but I'm so embarrassed. All I do is think about him. It started about a week or two ago, out of the blue. I think about his smile, his voice and what he's doing at the current moment. I've found his facebook as well as his friends/family's pages and I've just been looking at photos of him nonstop and I'm so ashamed.
Before I go any further, let me just clarify some things:
1. I haven't physically seen him since I was 18, I'm 21 now.
2. Girls like me don't even exist in his world.
3. I've never spoken to him very much nor do I know anything about him as far as personality. The only thing I know about him is his full name and what he looks like.
I'm not ashamed because of him but because I hardly know him and I can't stop thinking about him. It's embarrassing. Every time I think about how maybe I'd have a chance, I always think about how there's so many other girls prettier than me and he could have anyone he wants. He wouldn't waste his time on me. Besides, I haven't seen him in so long. He probably has a girlfriend by now. I remember how charming he seemed, so confident. The way he would comment on my humming or call me darlin'. The way his voice sounds. I miss it. This post probably sounds so pathetic. I feel like a school girl who has a crush on the principal. He's a bit older than me too which doesn't lessen my crush because I've always liked older men. I'm hoping this crush will pass quickly because I can't stop thinking about him.