I'm so ashamed

I'm 14 I just sucked a banana to see if it's like giving a b******* since I've never done it before but I didn't want to just put it back because that's gross so I threw it in the trash and my parents FOUND IT. Oh my God I'm so so embarrassed I could cry... I can't believe I did that they confronted me and I know they know what I was doing or think I was doing something even worse. This is so awful I want to crawl into a hole and never come out I hate this how can I ever face them ugh