My girlfriend is racist and I'm afraid to confront her about it.
We started dating a year ago, and at the time, nothing seemed to be wrong. We had a very loving friendship that blossomed into a relationship. More and more she revealed her true colors though. She's aggressive, and get's frustrated often. She puts up walls and won't let herself be the blame for any situation. I've often found myself putting up walls on my own, which she always tears down and get's mad at me for. This kept ruining our relationship time and time again. She used to be soft and sweet, but now she's constantly angry. I began to get angry and lash out, break pencils, and yell. But every time I got mad, she got madder, and we were always so close to breaking up. She also has somewhat conservative views, which has always striked me as strange considering she's a bisexual trans girl. Recently she shared a meme with Godzilla and King kong. It didn't strike me as anything odd. There was a movie coming out, and a debate as to who the victor would be in their fight. At first I thought it was just Godzilla having defeated King kong, smiling happily. But then she told me it was referencing the death of George Floyd. That's when I noticed Godzilla's knee was on King-kong's throat. She howled in laughter, and I grew very sad and uncomfortable. She thinks these things are hilarious. She's very pro-police, and thinks the black lives matter movement is a trend and a joke. I wish I could break up with her sometimes, but I can't help but be in love with her. I am very emotionally weak and in denial, and I don't think I'll ever be able to let her go if it's needed. Typing this is making my hand shake, I f****** hate myself.Feb 1