I want to see the World before I die

I confess that I tried Suicide only once in my life, but who hasn’t, everybody has tried Suicide just once in their life’s. I failed to kill myself, I never wanted anybody to feel sorry for me. I just wanted to end my misery and loneliness and despair and Isolation. I hated everybody and everything, so I tried Suicide, but it failed. Now I want to choose my death date, I don’t want to live, but I don’t to fail at Suicide neither, so I decided to go somewhere where help is available for me, and that’s Washington State or Oregon or Colorado or Vermont. And I’ll choose my death date, but not before I’ve gone on a 17 year journey over the whole United States.
And I’ll recreate the fictional Journey of Joel Miller and Ellie ( The Last of Us 2013) in their journey from Boston to Jackson to Salt Lake City before I decide on my death date in one of these 4 states where assisted suicide is legal, more likely it will be Denver Colorado or Tillamook Oregon where I’ll meet my demise. I want to see the world before I die, also before that death date, I’ll have to sign my own death certificate before I decide on what substance will kill me.
Will it be Fentanyl- no it’s too much of a Failure, it can’t kill me quick enough
Will it be Propofol- maybe, Propofol is super deadly, but harder to get over the counter
Will it be Heroin- yes maybe, 4 quick overdoses will kill me instantly
Will it be Cocaine- no Cocaine is too addictive and too painful for the brain
Will it be Nembutal- extreme yes, but takes a hour to kill me
Will it be Barbiturates- no I don’t want eternal sleep, I might wake up in extreme pain and I’ll scream in terror.
So my options are plenty, but I’ll have to choose one of these drugs to kill me quickly.

May 2

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