Still love her.
This happened in college. I was an a****** to my first serious girlfriend. She lost her virginity to me and we had s** as often as possible.Sometimes she would start a fight because she LOVED make-up s**.
After a couple of years together, I dumped her out of the blue for another girl who turned out to be a cheating, emotionally abusing b****. After I got over the b****, I realized I still loved my first GF, but she had moved on and would not talk to me (not that I blame her), which was awkward because we had several classes together and worked at the same place after classes.
She eventually married a good guy, while I went crazy, f****** anyone who would let me. I didn't feel that much for the women, but I wanted to have s** with them.
I found out years later that GF #1 had cancer and had died at a young age. I felt horrible; I'd never gotten around to telling her how sorry I was for the way I treated her, and now I never will.
I've been married for a good long while now, and while my wife is a lovely person and I care for her, I'm still in love with my old GF. I just wish I could talk to her.