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I was going to comment on a story titled "Why can't I say no to him" but instead decided to just post my own confession here, I am a 43 year old woman, 4 children, Loving husband and...An unwanted side piece. I just cannot say no to her, I tried to put a stop to it 27 years ago, 20 years ago, 10 years ago, 4 years ago and again yesterday.
I will start at day one, Me, My 3 cousins, My 5 year older cousins 2 best friends and a day at the beach. My cousins had a boat so my one male cousin that was with us was driving was brother to my two female cousins, My 3 female cousins (2 were Sisters) and I with my cousins friends were all in bikinis, I was feeling super self conscious since I had not really started to develop yet and I felt like I was the one person there that didn't have ** or a **.
So I will list off the girls but these are all estimates:
1) Me, 16, Brunette, Freckly, A cups, slim, just over 5 feet, 115 pounds.
2) Cousin 1: 21, Brunette, DD cups, slim, same height as me, 125 pounds.
3) Cousin 2: 17, Blonde, DD cups, Slim, 5 foot 5 or so, 125 pounds.
4) Cousin 3: 14, White hair, D cups, similar height to me, 135 pounds.
5) Cousins friend 1: 21, Blonde, DD cups, 5 foot 6, 130 pounds.
6) Cousins friend 2: 21, Dirty blonde, C cups, 5 foot 5, 130 pounds.
So my male cousin probably already had spent the entire morning rocking a ** long before my cousin and her friends made a decision to beach the boat in a little cove with a sandy shore and he sat in the captains chair, Spun it around and watched us all "Frolic" in the sun jumping off the boat etc.
It was hot as ** that day and basically the perfect beach day, My cousin and her friends had been drinking and had a huge cooler full of vodka coolers.
That was the first time I had ever taken off any clothes in front of someone else but they had given me and my other cousins a few coolers and I was feeling tipsy, Not the first time I ever drank but probably the mix of sun and vodka had made me get drunk faster than I normally would have. One of the girls (Cousins friend 1) lost her top jumping in the water, Then a game of keep away started and she basically just said "like I give a **" and climbed up on the boat. Yeah...I think everyone there just stopped and stared in awe at her standing on the swim deck at the back of the boat, I can still picture her standing there, Dripping wet, Sun glistening off her sun screened skin, Her huge ** with small dark nips and flat stomach, Round **, Great legs. Wow she was a sight, She did a shallow dive back in the water and it took everyone a minute to clear their head of that image.
After that it kinda got a little crazy, My male cousin who by the way was 19 at the time just sat quietly hoping no one would notice him watching us, My cousin and her two friends didn't waste any time and were soon all **, They pretty much each singled out one of us and got me and my other two cousins **, I was so nervous and embarrassed because I basically had small, Saggy A cups with oblong areolae but big, Long, brown nips that I hated, I still hate them, I just wanted to partake and not be noticed since EVERYONE else looked 10 times better than me in my mind but my cousin and her two friends started just...Evaluating us, It was a total mean girl type situation and they were all standing in the water, We were all sitting at the back of the boat on the swim deck which was at water level about waist deep.
they each stood in front of one of us and kept handing us coolers, Telling us to chug etc.
Cousin 1 in front of cousin 3.
Friend 1 in front of me.
Friend 2 in front of cousin 2.
No jokes I was like on the verge of tears, I sat there slumped forward, My cousins friend looked at my chest, raised one eyebrow and said "Ummm...Girl...I don't even....", Basically everyone looked over and she told me to it up straight and I did, Barely a rise of ** but long, Droopy nips, I sat staring at the sky and friend 1 said "Oh my goodness, They look sad", My cousin said "Ok, Ok, Don't be mean, She will develop if she got any of our genes" (I didn't...Much), they told us to look at each other and blah blah, cousin 2 had big, Firm **, small nips and looked pretty much perfect like her sister, Cousin 3 they made fun of for being pale as a ghost but she had massive ** at frickin 14, Like WTF, why couldn't at least one person be under a C cup other than me, Cousin 3 had big areolae, Smooth, Flat and very pale pink with just a tiny little nip on each one, Honestly not what I expected but....Thy made us sit with our hands on the swim deck, Backs straight and made our nips hard, The girl in front of me shrugged and said "I don't even know what to do with these, I measured them once and they were over an inch long, She flicked them up with her pointer ** and each time she did it gave me goose bumps, I looked at my other two cousins and they were sitting there, Looking perfect of course, Cousin 2, Wrinkly, Hard, Like a pencil eraser, Cousin 3 thick, Pale pink nips, Bumpy and about the same length and there I sat with my droopy, Brown nips.
they told us to stand and turn, I covered myself and I don't know what the the others did, I wasn't looking but I noticed my male cousin right away, They each got up on the swim deck behind us and made us put our hands at our sides, They said "Ok....Starting here" and put a hand on my head "tell us an order from 1 - 6" meaning for my male cousin to rate us basically and make us stand in order, This part was so frickin weird with him rating girls which he was related to 2/3 of but he did.
1) Me.
2) Cousin 3.
3) Cousin 2 (His younger sister).
4) Friend 2.
5) Cousin 1.
6) Friend 1.
then they turned us around and had him rate us as they hauled our bikinis up our ** cracks to make a thong and again rate us. It was basically the same except friend one and cousin 1 switched, He rated the front again with our bottoms at our knees but....BAM, I switched with friend 1, So great to have your male cousin rate you as having the nicest ** out of everyone there (Eye roll).
1) Friend 1.
2) Cousin 2.
3) Friend 2.
4) Cousin 3.
5) Cousin 1.
6) Me.
I could not have been happier when we heard a boat coming down the lake and pretty much everyone got dressed, the boat came into the bay and did a circle then left and we decided to go back to the lake house my cousins owned, they kept feeding us coolers, Cousin 3 didn't last long and was on her knees puking before midnight, Cousins 1 and 2 went to bed after getting her tucked into bed with a bucket around 1 or 2, I sat at the table with friend 1 and 2 and had maybe 1 or 2 more coolers and then friend 1 whispered something to friend 2 and went to bed and I pretty much instantly felt a weird mood fall over the room. we had modified the sleeping arrangements since no one wanted to sleep with cousin 3 and get puked on so cousin 1 and 2 were going to sleep together and friend 1 and 2 were going to sleep together and I was going to take the couch while my male cousin had his own room.
Friend 1 said "come with me", I did and she led me to the room, I said "What about ****?", She giggled and said "Oh...She will be staying elsewhere so you'll be sleeping here", I was young and niave and these were basically the coolest girls in the world to me at that time so I just did what I was told, I just had shorts and my bikini on so I nervously looked around and she said "Just lose it all, It's so much more healthy and blah, blah, blah" I don't really remember what else she said but I nervously got undressed in the dimly lit room and slipped under the covers while I watched her undress and brush her hair then flaunt her body around the room and she slid in beside me.
We were only in bed a couple minutes and were just whispering about whatever when she looked at me and smiled, I said "What?" and she said "Shhh, Listen", I listened and heard sounds, I wasn't completely oblivious but didn't know what the sounds were, She bit her bottom lip and her eyes got wide as she whispered "Come on", I so wanted to be cool so I got out of bed, She told me to put on my shorts and tossed me a t-shirt, I put it on and she and I tip toed down the hall, We stopped at my male cousins door and I could then hear what I knew was ** noises, Slurping and moaning.
She looked around and was sort of panicked, She waved for me to follow her and I did, We snuck outside and she said "help me", We struggled to move the wooden picnic table which seemed to weigh a ton over to the window, I could see there was a light on and she quietly stepped up onto the table motioning for me to do the same, I did and when we looked in the window I looked at her and her eyes got wide. Ok, Yeah I hadn't and still haven't seen a ** that big which is an odd thing to know about your cousin but he has a huge **, We were watching them for a bit and then she put her hand up the back of my shirt, Soon my shirt was around my arm pits and she was behind me squeezing and pulling my nips, yada, Yada, She led me back to the bedroom after watching him come on friend 1's huge ** and she pretty much tossed me on the bed, I whispered "Whoa, Whoa....No, No...I am straight" and she didn't listen, Oral for me, Oral for her and a sixty nine until we both finished, She made me wear the t-shirt to bed and told me if I told anyone she would hate me forever.
I never told anyone till now but me and her have been together 1-2 times a month for the last 27 years and I have tried, I swear I have tried to tell her I want to stop to which she just says "Oh don't be silly" and I can't stop her, She has a weird mind control over me and I just can't say no and stick to it, My husband of 15 years has no idea and I hate that part more than anything else but she won't let me tell him, She is also married for the last 9 years and he doesn't know either. I want to stop but can't resist her.
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