Being a New Dad
Being a Dad. It is something I have wanted to do for a very long time. And I am so grateful to have a healthy baby girl. I love her so much and I am trying to work so hard for her. I can honestly say that God has blessed me and my little family. I love my wife. She is amazing. Sometimes I feel that all of the many blessings that God has given me are too great, or that I do not truly deserve them. My wife and I both do not have normal health circumstances, yet together we have created this perfect little girl, she was born a little early and a little small, but she is growing every day and getting cuter everyday.
I can go on and on about these blessings, because there is a lot in my eyes... Even after all of this I still look at myself in the mirror and see myself as underserving of such blessings. I see myself and think that I will have some kind of freak accident or bad thing that is going to happen. I know that I must just think this because I watch too many movies where bad things happen to good people, and maybe I am skeptical, or maybe I am just lucky and usually i consider myself unlucky...
I just know that I wake up in the night sometimes having nightmares and i do not sleep well... could also be from the baby... and I just worry about her. I worry about my wife and I's relationship, but there is honestly nothing to worry about... She and I are great together, we still love going on dates and still love spending time with each other. She is the love of my life and I just worry and I think I am going to keep worrying myself to death!