Repressing

I am doing all I can to try and subdue this feeling. To bury it deep into my subconscious and hope it goes away. I am running but I know it will probably catch up to me eventually, that all I am doing is delaying the inevitable. I refuse to admit it, but deep, deep inside I know it's true. It feels wrong and that's why I am trying to suppress it, but it's really hard. I feel like I'm treading water in an ocean and trying my best to stay above the surface and not drown, but I know I will soon inevitably tire and fall under the waves.

It roams my subconscious, following me into my dreams. It is inescapable. All I can do is hold on and hope I don't sully my surroundings and let everyone I care about down.

this is literally about obsessing over fictional characters lmao

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