Tonight I finally couldn't take it anymore. I was having an anxiety attack. After months of not doing it, I grabbed the knife in my closet, and slashed my thighs until they bled. I'm so ashamed of myself.

This whole month I've been working on sitting with my emotions and figuring them out, not ignoring them like I usually would since it was detrimental to the relationships I have with others and my general well-being. I've been working on my patience, and bringing subconscious issues to the surface.

I thought I came so far. But I still feel like s***. Back to square one. I feel like a failure.

Why is it so difficult to be a decent human? I want to be naturally empathetic and compassionate towards others but instead it feels like I push everyone away with my overreactions or lack of reactions. It's so upsetting, because I'll still selfishly think, "Why don't MY feelings matter? Why are they making it about them?" When that's exactly what I'm doing.

I want to be different... better... but it's so hard when it seems like people purposely put you in situations just to see how you react, like a test. Life, please, just give me a break. Please. Or at least give me the courage to end it.

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  • Dear Friend,
    Please don't ever harm yourself again. Go to the nearest emergency room now and get treatment for your injuries. You need psychiatric and social work counseling. Be sure to do this today. No one's life is perfect but things can improve for you with the right help. Be well and let us know how you're doing.

  • Downside of anonymous confessions - I can't actually talk / listen to you, otherwise I would offer to talk to you about it and just listen to what you have to say. Sometimes that makes things better ( for good psych reasons ).

  • Those scars will look so stupid when you're 40.

  • Are you seeing a psychiatrist? They can help with things like this.

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