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My dad wants me to have a funeral. I don't.
My entire life, my dad has made my choices for me. When I was younger, my mom was friends with an old woman on the other side of town. One day, my mom said that her and me would spend a Saturday night with her. On the way home, I told my mom I wasn't going to do it. She said I was and I stood by my decision and said no. When my dad found out, he told me I would be spending the night. He didn't ask me if I wanted to. He made me. Years later, while I was a student at school, a woman who worked there decided to set me up on a date with another student. I didn't want to. My dad forced me. A school dancing coming up. Me not interested in going. My dad drove me. A school in another city to learn computer repair. I'll pass, thanks. My dad drove me there too. Sometime later, my dad began telling me that I better start planning for my funeral. I told him I don't want one. That's when it got heated between me and my dad over the years. Every time he tells me I need to start planning for a funeral I keep telling him I don't want to have one. He then proceeds to tell me that if I don't have a funeral, they'll just stick me in a box and bury me in the ground. Who f**king cares? I don't. Finally, on one such occasion, I finally told my dad, "Well, excuse me but, since it's my life, it should be my choice whether or not I want to have a funeral or not. Not yours and I don't want one." My dad's response was, "Well, tough! You're getting one and that's final." That's always been the thing about my dad. My entire life he has always made my choices for me instead of asking me what I want. Instead his word is final. Some time early this year, every week for one day, him and my mom leave the house and are gone for an hour or two. I believe that for those missing hours, my dad is going to the funeral home and making down payments on my funeral. The thing is however, my dad fails to realize that if he dies before me, then I have every intention of finding a way to cancel my funeral. So, in a sense, my dad is just throwing away money on a funeral that's never going to happen. And if I can't cancel my funeral, then I intend to up and leave. Where I go I don't know and I don't care. What I do know is that when I die, they won't be able to find my body for a long time and when they do they'll most likely just find skeletal remains but no ID. So if I get buried, it will be as a John Doe.
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