dream that won't go away
When I was about three years old, I had a dream where I was with my dad (not the best father figure) and he was taking me to his friends house to pick something up. When we walked in there was a bunch of men in the living room drinking and smoking cigs. My dad told me to wait here for a second while he went to get something. After a while a man came in the room, he had medium length brown hair, brown beard, and was drinking beer. The next thing I know, I'm seeing colors of white, the floor and walls turn white. I can't move suddenly either.The man with the beard takes his pants off and holds me down on the couch and sticks his p**** in my mouth. I feel something like water in my mouth and I think he's peeing but it doesn't have the texture of pee, it also was white (c**) I can't breathe and I'm choking while he hurts me. When he's done my dad comes in and I'm crying and screaming and my dad looks at me with a sad face, but doesn't say anything. This dream was so clear and vivid for me as a three year old, and I haven't forgot it since. I'm almost 16 now. I've never told anyone about this dream. But I don't understand how a three year old can have a dream about a b****** when they don't even know there is such things as b******* or let alone s**. I didn't know about b******* or s** until I was like 12, but when i learned what a b****** was it took me right back to when I was 3 years old. Now looking back on this dream I wonder If It wasn't a dream, and did seeing white mean I was drugged some how? Plus how can a three year old have such a sexual, scary dream when they have no knowledge of the situation. I don't want to go to a therapist of ask my parents about this dream. So please tell me what you think happened to me.