DEAR god

All i really wont is for god to talk to me he could say anything hi,im here,i love you,i was there when he abused you,i never left you,you are my child and i love you,im mad at you,you've been sinning today,how was your day,your mother was worried when you went to that party,i helped you went you didn't get hit by that car at age of 4,tell your sister i see her she is to young for him,tell your sister to stop sneaking out at night to be with boys to old for her,tell your sister i said to stop chasing after boys i saw her begging that boys mother to let her see him see needs to stop being to low self esteemed

if he just spoke to me and let me know that hes is there

id been glad if i could just hear anything there was one

time in my life i can remember when i was on fire for god i

was preaching about heaven to these kids at school but they

beat me up and they laughed at me they said i was crazy

there is no man living in the sky they told me to stay off

drugs i cried for days afterwards and then i felt like a

looser i started getting mad and begging him to come down

off the cloud so i wouldn't be look at like i was crazy

but he never did my mother was the one that feed me all

this she made me get baptized she made me believe in him

then i had total faith that he wouldn't let me down

after i had begged pleaded and cried i was only about 12

so where is he the kids asked and i just waited then i

pointed up in the sky and i screamed for god but he never made a sound.