Beta male

So I’ve called myself bisexual and I have sucked more than a few **. I always told myself I wasn’t gay though because I’ve never had a real ** penetrate me though. Well I had a new fun game I’d do and I’d go to a cruising website a gay one and see who in my area was always cruising for gay **. I did meet with a guy before in this site but I only gave him a **. Well this time was different. A guy messaged me, to be precise he sent me a ** pick and asked if I liked what u saw. It was a beautiful black cut handsome looking ** it had a nice sine he shaved it perfectly, his ** and shaft were smooth and practically glowing. I replied yes while drooling on my end. He asked for my stats and a picture. Well I tell him my stats clearly wooed by his confidence and his impressive member. He asks again for the picture saying he wants a nice ** to ** in. I strip down and bend over and take a picture of my ** trying to bend it upward to look **. There’s a pause and I think oh boy you embarrassed yourself this guy is clearly out of your league well what did you expect he’s gonna block you. Too
My surprise he messages back ** ** you interested in meet up I’m only about ten minutes away and you got a fine **. I’m smitten I’m done I’m blushing and hard and I panic and I feel him I dunno never actually been all the way with a guy like that yet. And he responds instantly, wait your cherry has t been pooped yet oh baby you gotta let me plow that **. My heart is racing I’ve never been popular with ether ** I was that kid who would stand at the punch bowl at a school dance but now someone wanted me, ** someone I really fancied wanted me. Granted I don’t know this guys face and I’m just seeing his shinny ** but well to say I’m interested is an understatement. I ask him if I can think about it. He says no pressure. At this point I ask an online friend what I should do. She heard the picture we never met in person and she tells me to go for it. Worst case scenario no one has to know but her him and me if it goes badly and hey I’ll always wonder otherwise. I think she’s right so with a lump in my throat I message the man back and say hey I’d like to meet up. Would you like to come to my place and well ** in me? My chest feels like a Jack hammer my face is burning read as I cringe at my bad pick up line. He asks for my address I give it to him and I hear a beep I’m in a daze as I wait. He shows up less than ten minutes. Well I great him at the door and lead him to my bed room. He’s got a confident swagger like he’s done this a hundred times before. I feel like I’m in high school again I’m so nervous. That he takes his pants off and I see his **. It was honestly a disappointment. He lied about how big he was his ** was still nice but it was about 3 inches smaller than what he said it was and in person I could tell it was smaller. The worst part is I wanted someone bigger than me or at least my same size he was only around 5inches I’m 7.5 myself. Well I didn’t end things there I started to ** him off a bit. This went on until he said ok let me pop that cherry. So I grabbed a condom for him and he tries to convince me we don’t need that I go back and forth with yes we do and he accepts it. Well I live hein up lube me up and try to put him in me and…. Outch that hurts nope nope nope need more lube I get him and me more lube and play with myself a little before trying to have him enter me again. He chuckles saying I really am a virgin for this. Which was half true I used toys but never a real **. Guess it was a good thing he was smaller after all, and second times the charm and yup he’s in me. Not feeling to much at first as I slowly start to ride him it’s ok I guess not seeing the big diffrence maybe this isn’t for me? I guess I could just like sucking them maybe in a top? Than he says ok you seem lose enough now and he flips me down and no I’m no longer riding him he’s in charge. He starts to pump into me and ow no wait oh no ow no oh no ow. He pulls out and says to turn around, I’m back to curious now it hurts but it also feels good. So I bend over and he mounts me again I grab a pillow
And start to bite it, I know a cliche but hey they’re cliche for a reason. After about 4 pumps I start to moan it dosen’t hurt anymore it just feels good. He hears me and says yeah that’s a good ** and slaps my **. Now that gets me going, I’m really into it now as he says that’s some good ** who’s ** is that and I moan back his and say please he asks please what and I say please ** me. He chuckles and says so if it’s my ** can I take the condom off and I min back ** no but please keep going. He pumps harder and I start following his rhythm and pushing back as he pushes in to try and ride his ** from behind. Oh it feels soooo good, this is better than any sec I e had before and as I’m enjoying the moment he grunts and ** in the condom….. I suddenly feel like every girl who complains men ** to fast. I mean it was good really good but I wasn’t finished but he clearly was. Well I felt completely vindicated that I made him wear a condom otherwise who knows how quick that would've ended. I thank him for comming over he runs my ** a bit and slaps it and says don’t be a stranger. I walk him to the door and he leaves. Now I didn’t know after shocks were a thing because I felt them for a bit and grabbed a toy and finished myself off. It was over all a good experience. I wish he didn’t lie about how big he was and ** I wish he lasted longer but he did know why he was doing. I told my online friend about it and she both clapped and laughed when she asked how I rated it and I told her a 7 outta 10. I mentioned the lying bit and the finishing too early part. She told me I sounded like a girl and if I would do it again. I said ** yeah best ** I ever had I don’t even know if I’d consider myself bi anymore after that. She welcomed me to the rainbow road and asked when I’m gonna meet him again and I realized I forgot to get his contact info and he was now logged off the cruising site. ** guess I sadly will be a stranger cause honestly even though it wasn’t perfect I would’ve called him again. Well that’s my tail of how I realized I was a beta male because not only did I invite someone over to mount me but I had the bigger ** but ** if that didn’t matter I was his ** and I liked it. Over all I gotta say try new things might completely change your perspective on things and hey if you don’t like it at least you tried and now you know for sure.