Love that Never Should Have Come About
I LOVE HIM.
I really do...I don't doubt it. So what, you say I can't be in love? That as a responsible, mature sixteen-year-old, I don't know what love is?
I say you're wrong.
Everyone says I have the maturity of someone college-age or older, and I believe it to be true...I have already made important decisions regarding my future that people several years my senior have yet to make.
So why can't I decide something that is IN MY HEART? What gives anyone the right to belittle my feelings?
I love him with all my heart...I know it. I'm not stupid, I won't just give my heart away to anybody, and I certainly wouldn't say something so important as "I love you" to someone if I didn't mean it.
Ok, so there's something most consider morally wrong here: he's twenty-one.
So? I am NOT SEXUALLY ACTIVE. Read that again: NOT. SEXUALLY. ACTIVE. Capiche? I'm a VIRGIN. And I will stay that way until I am AT LEAST eighteen, perhaps older. I don't see the wrong in premarital s**, but s** before being a legal adult...it's wrong. You just aren't ready to make the emotional decision. It's so sad to me, all the girls my age who've lost their virginity...and I plan to be an example against what my generation is becoming. I have a perfectly happy, healthy relationship where my boyfriend and I aren't going anywhere past kissing. Yeah, yeah, there's the legality push too, but we'd wait anyway, because of my beliefs.
Yep, that's right: MY beliefs. His too, of course, but they mostly affect yours truly.
Can you honestly say, after reading this, that I'm not mature enough to love him? That I'll make a bad decision, and lose my virginity soon?
I hope not. Because I will be a virgin for at least two more years. And I DO love him, with all my heart...it's such a wonderful, all-encompassing, breathtaking feeling that consumes your mind...*sigh* (I'm also a writer...can you tell?)
Please...just tell me it's alright to love him, because we're waiting--because our relationship is pure, and will remain pure until we're ready, and it's legal.