My older sister dated a guy seriously in college, but they broke up bitterly. now his little brother goes to college with me. i've been in love with him since the second i met him in class. we became friends fast and i think he flirts and toys with me because our older siblings now hate each other so much so he knows we can't go anywhere.
i have a big heart but i won't let anyone know it and it's hard for me to take down my guard. but he said something to me, about how i really couldn't hurt a soul when everyone else believes i could. he says these things that no one should know all the time. it makes me feel like he knows me deep down. and i know he's been through so much and no one sees past the funny persona he has.
i should tell him but i'm not brave enough. and even if i was, our siblings are our best friends. we couldn't upset them. sometimes i think it's best if he were the big what-if/never-was in my life. maybe we weren't meant to be together. maybe no one will ever know me as well as he does.