Twofaced.

I constantly second guess myself, and wearing a facade is fundamentally second nature for me. I need to change because as each day passes, I begin to hate myself more than I already do. I lie to myself and others by being someone I'm not: the critical and bitchy cynic. I'm only that way because of all the things I went through in the past that nobody should ever have to go through. I want to seem like a strong person, even though underneath it all, I'm faltering and crumbling under all my lies. In all honesty, the real me is an insecure girl who wants her place in the world. I'm a hopeless romantic who wants to love and be loved, I can easily be taken advantage of and that's why I avoid trouble at all times. Confrontation isn't my thing despite being so critical - I'm afraid to hurt others because I've been hurt so much and from past experience, I wouldn't want anyone else to feel pain, and also it might not seem like it, but I do see the best in others when others can't. To be honest, I want to heal those who are hurt. Everybody has somebody, and I want to be that somebody when nobody is around to be there for them.

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