I'm sure there will be trolls who will jump all over this, but after eight months of being in the process of dying, I wish this s*** would just end. I am not suicidal, I am not a drama queen. I have been in excruciating, unrelenting pain for months. I can't endure it. But I can't put my family through the pain in the ass that is finishing my business. I wake up after little sleep and try to tcb, but I keep wishing that i had never woken up. my body is all but dead, my will is dead, i am not dead. why can i not just die?