I starve myself..
I weigh 106. I'm a 15 year old girl. 5"4'. I honestly HATE my weight... so so much. I feel so guilty after I eat or drink anything except water. I do eat, sometimes, but I'm constantly checking the calories and stuff... I got up to 110 lbs two weeks ago, and cried and ugh. I want to be 90 lbs like I was last year. It hurts... NOBODY knows what i'm going through. I have to hide it as best as possible. And like... i'll go on eating binges. I'll eat ALOT one day and then not eat anything but crackers and water the next few days. But it's getting so hard. I want to eat. I don't want fat. I want this hungry feeling to go away. I'm thinking about making myself throw up again... it's so much easier than to starve. because it hurts.... please help.