I hate my friend
I have been friends with this one girl for a long time. However, ever since last year, she and I have grown a part. We used to be inseparable, and people used to get us mixed up all the time. Now, it is just annoying, because I don't think I look anything like her. If anything, I think I look way better than her. I always feel I am in a competition with her, and that I always have to be better than her. I dont know why I always feel I have to one up her, but I just do. She and her boyfriend are so childish and lovey-dovey around each other, even though we are both graduating high school. You would think they would have the decency to not be all over each other at school. Anyway, I recently finished up a project with her and I hated being with her for it. We were in closed quarters for long periods into the night for rehearsals, and everytime I looked at her I just wanted to punch her in the face. She is so ugly to me now. She is a bratty little attention-w**** who, if she doesn't get the attention she wants, becomes moody and disinterested. I also had to go on a trip with her, and share a room with her, and let me tell you that was a hoot. Just because she couldn't be with her precious little boy toy all night doesn't mean she had to be moody while the rest of the roomies played a board game. She was self-exiling herself from our activities, and then later claims she didn't have the greatest time on the trip. I mean, come on! She did it to herself, and I don't get why she is turning around and complaining about it! Life is what you make it, and if you make it harder for yourself to enjoy life, don't say it wasn't your fault! I just hate the way she acts, and because we go to the same high school and do the same activities and have the same classes, I can't seem to get away from her even though I would love to just forget about her. She bothers me so much but I can't get away from it! So i am just waiting for the end of high school where I can get to college and get away from her. She shouldn't even be bothering me if I don't like her so much, but I do. It's like an inner devil hatched inside me the instant I realized I didn't like her, and now I can't seem to release it. IT sucks because it has been affecting my mood, my work, my school, my relationships with my friends and family. It just really sucks.