What should I do?
Well. My now ex girlfriend and I still like each other, in fact I love her. We went out for 4 months, and now we still flirt and call each other 'baby' and so forth.
She always had a few problems with me though, like how I could never hold a conversation with her, or how i lived 20 some miles away, or how I lied.
-NOTE: I'm not saying that my lies we're good. it was totally wrong. and I hate myself for it. But I NEVER cheated on her. I never have cheated on anyone.
Anyway, she also didn't like how I never argued with her. I always forgave her or said I'm sorry, because I don't want to lose her.
But, a few months into the relationship, she said that she didn't love me anymore, and I cried and cried, but I got through it, and still went out with her because she wanted me. She wanted to love me. and then right after a huge fight we had, we broke up (this was right before valentines day) and she told me that she had started to love me again, and that she was going to tell me that on valentines day as a present.
After that we continued to talk and I calmed her down to a point where she started to flirt with me again, and I've gotten better with the conversations and all of that as well.
(Also, I apparently was flirting with other girls when we broke up so I stopped doing what ever i was doing)
All was going great until tonight, when I saw a post on her facebook wall about some very sensitive stuff, and it hit me that SHE was flirting with other guys!
Now, don't get this wrong, she still VERY much likes me. But sometimes she HATES me because of the lies I told her
(I came clean about everything)
I've been working so hard to get her trust back, but when I asked her about it, she thought I accused her of doing it, instead of what I meant it to sound like was a question. And things got blown out of proportion and now she won't even talk to me.
I hate this so much because I'm so crazy for her. I walked to her house, then since i didnt have the courage to knock, I walked back home, a full 50 miles in total.
I hate this feeling. I dont want to leave her, but I WANT TO BE HAPPY TOO!