It makes me so mad

Nothing p***** me off more when my sister talks about how she's "traumatized" by the time her ex boyfriend slapped her across the face once...she makes it a huge deal and the family feel soo sorry for her....

If anyone should be the emotionally damaged one its me...
My first boyfriend (and so far I haven't had another boyfriend after him) was extremely abusive towards me...I was slammed into walls, punched, kicked....to the point where I couldn't even stand up...I've had knives held up to my throat and I had to beg for my life numerous times. I've had to come home with bruises and my family didn't even notice...

They now know that I was abused and really don't seem to care...
But with my sister they comfort her whenever she brings it up...

Because of this I've been avoiding relationships. Whenever I start to get close to a guy I run away from them before anything really develops...

I also have a fear of knives and I'm incredibly jumpy...
And it bugs me when people laugh and ask me "man why are you so jumpy!?"
Before this happened I had such an innocent mind and I always thought the best of people...now all I think is that everyone Is out to get me and they want to hurt me....

So yeah...I would have taken 1 slap in the face instead of all the s*** I had to go through...

And this happened to me 4 years ago and I still have nightmares everynight...yet I have to go on and act like nothing is wrong with me...

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  • Well she's the older sister...not the younger one
    Though u are right Its not like I'm trying to get pity I just get angry that she's so dramatic and yet if I were to complain once about it I would be told to "stop complaining"....

  • Stop being such a drama queen.

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