I dont know who to love anymore
I dont know why you left me. you dont truly know either. you say things werent the same. now your back. and i dont think i can cope i have a new guy now. i thought i was happy. you say you arent over me. you say you want me back. you disappeared out of my life for 8 months and all off a sudden your back thinking you can just come back. You vanished, didnt answer calls, didnt reply to emails, you didnt tell anyone things about me. no one knew we were together apart from us. Im 15 now, you came back on my birthday and i had to cry myself to sleep that night. We were together for a year and then you left so suddenly i didnt know what i did wrong. the goodnight, il talk to you tomorrow :) i love you <3 suddenly went to goodnight. im leaving for 8 months. il be back when i can be bothered to come back. We talk now, just like old times and i miss you more then anything :/ i dont know why i cant shut you out of my life like i said i would if you were to ever come back.
I have a new boyfriend now :/ he thinks the world of me and i know it , but i dont think i can feel the same way back :/ i know my parents would never accept him and would accept you more :/ they didnt know about you though and they dont know about him either . i intend to keep it that was as im strictly forbiddon to not have a relationship. im sorry but i dont know who to love anymore. im sorry that i wasnt good enough for you. im sorry i put up with your bullshit. im sorry i cant shut you out.