I work at a fashion magazine and I f****** hate it. I worked my ass off for my entire f****** get here and now that I've finally made it all I have is anger, disappointment, and an eating disorder which is so f****** cliche. I NO LONGER GIVE A S*** ABOUT ANY OF THE S*** THAT I ONCE CARED ABOUT. I don't know what to do, where to go, how to make money, etc. I feel worthless, dumb, aimless, and mostly just depressed. I drink and do drugs way to much. After 10+ years of not thinking about injuring myself all the time I suddenly want to. I feel myself slipping into a hole and all I can do is pray that I will get my s*** together before I fall through completely.