Im a young asian girl. my dad used my mom for s** when i was young child he used too come too the house f*** her right in front of me and then go back too his wife and kids. When I was 10 he pinched my mom bum a few times really hard in front of my mom, he has also felt my breast very lightly when i was 13 and he used too call my mom and me "his girls". He never showed any interest in me and never bothered too bond with me either.
When I was a child I used too imitate his behaviour on other girls. I felt my cousins v***** and t*** and I used too try and rub up against other children from the age of 6-11.
In my teens all I cared about was p*** and s**. I used too get off on p*** and I had my first o***** when I 12... when found my stepdad's p*** stash.
Since the age of 12 I've always fantasized about older men and being an innocent girl and being dominated by them. I liked the feeling of being wanted and sucked a few older mens d****.
I got bullied at school which didn't help my self esteem and I used too chat too older men on the internet and strip for them too make me feel better about myself.
My low self esteem triggered me into a slutty image.. I also used too make up lies too impress other peeople and also suffered racial prejudice which made me more of a wildchild... People undermined me and I wanted too prove them that I wasn't innocent!
I feel like a loser. I feel people always judge me depending on my appearance, how much money I have and other things...
I was a stripper for 2 years
I loved the money being a stripper and I got off on rubbing on hard men d****. I was one of the top earners in that club and it made me feel good about myself too. I also enjoyed speaking too men and building a raport with some however I did encounter many d****!
I want too make freindships with girls but find it really hard.. Ive always found it hard too make freinds as a child and get really nervous and mess things up!
i have a boyfreind now and havent told him any of the stuff...