This world is killing me. I set everything straight in my life that I could. It sucks I feel like a walking zombie. I really do. I'm not always here anymore. Emotionally, I'm dead. And have been for quite sometime. It's funny. I'm not afraid to die anymore. Not afraid to look at the stats and have to be earth bound. I almost feel happy, or something to know. I don't care, have no ties, have no dreams or wants. I can live or die. Do as I please. Death is only scary if you have somthing to live for. If you want to see the skies turn from black, to a silver blue before a vast unshakeable tide of orange and red erupt against the clouds creating a sunrise.
Only then do you know, you can commit sucide as dawn unravels your frozen body from the night before.
The sunrise can take my soul.