I am 24 years old and have only had ** with one person, and she came on to me. I'm lonely and wish i could make a connection with someone, but I'm afraid to approach a woman for fear of rejection. All my friends have steady girlfriends or hook up with girls regularly. I have a deep seeded self loathing that makes me believe that any woman will reject me. I often take ridiculous chances like climbing without safety gear and swimming in rapids, secretly hoping to die. Many people have complimented me for being brave, but i'm more afraid than they'll ever know.