I am a high school girl. I am a christian, I have not always been one though. I was however raised in a christian family that always went to church and sunday school... but we kind of broke away from that. I came back to Christ as an assembly of god about a year ago. I never had the best relationships with my parents, my friends got me in trouble. My parents and friends were not Christians. I was living my life in sin. I was a cutter, and I experimented with drugs and alcohol before. I used bad language. Wore all black and dyed my hair crazy colors. I thought that all of those things defined me... I was wrong. The only problem that I never was able to solve was my sexuality. I have a big suspicion that I am bisexual. This was not a problem to me for a while... I figured that it would solve itself in time... well a while a go I suffered a tragic family loss and it pushed me to want to get right with god. I have not missed a youth group since. I pray constantly and I try to make myself better every day. This problem still exists. It's almost written in bold print. "sure, your a christian.... but why do you have feelings for girls" I do know that Jesus loves me, and I invite him into my heart all of the time.. however I don't feel right. I know how my new christian friends feel about this subject, so I have never told them this personal conflict. I don't think I want to change... I don't know if I should think that. I know that I want a husband and kids someday... I just also know that I am equally attracted to girls. I've been reading books, and looking things up all of the time and all it has gotten me is more confusion. I've come to realize that there is no human right answer to this question, only god can determine my fate. However, this whole matter depresses me at times, and is not easy to ignore.