Confused about Evil

I am a christian. Or at least that's what I think I am. I believe in God and his holy son, but sometimes I have doubts. I've been through a lot of suffering in my life and I see countless evil on t.v. and anywhere else I go; and thus that makes me sort of doubt there is a God. Then I feel so guilty about it. I want to believe but the logical side of me asks "If there's a god why is there so much evil? So much suffering and acts of murder, hatred ect." It makes me sad and angry. If he's all powerful why would he watch his children suffer if he could just stop it? I'm not one to judge though because I sometimes have evil thoughts. Like if I get extremely angry I'll think of killing something or someone. It's totally out of my character and I immediately feel sad and angry at myself for letting myself succumb to that when I know I am better. Maybe I'm not the best christian but I do try when I can to do good, be good, and teach others how to be good, but it's so discouraging. It doesn't make it better when I have a boyfriend who's the typical "thug" he sells drugs and does bad things that I never knew about until 2 years in the relationship. I hate that he waited till I was in love with him to tell me and I wish he would change his lifestyle, because I love him and his terrible past isn't a good excuse to do wrong. I pray for him and wish he would change knowing he wont. I feel like I need to be with a good christian guy but it's to late now, I've already consummated my love with my boyfriend. I want children and a family with him but I don't want to raise my children in this evil world. I'm torn between my religion, the world as I know it, and my boyfriend. I hate it.

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  • It is not too late to leave and get a good guy. Do you really want to have kids with a man who will probably end up in jail and not be supporting his family? You may have consumted your love. You are not married and not pregnant. Run as fast as you can, even if it breaks your heart now you may end up happy for the rest of your life instead of having a crappy life.

  • "Stop thinking of yourself as trapped. You aren't!" I couldn't have said it better myself. I believe you are struggling with the burden of free will. We all have our doubts because our thought process changes as we experience different situations but we could do whatever we dedicate our minds to. 1 -"If he's all powerful why would he watch his children suffer if he could just stop it?"- God granted us FREE WILL but with great power comes great responsibility! Remember that Adam and Eve allowed themselves to be persuaded into introducing SIN into the world. God doesn't want his children to become murders and thieves but they choose to do so and will be punished accordingly if they don't repent. 2-"I feel like I need to be with a good christian guy but it's too late now"- Its NEVER too late. It all comes down to YOU and your CHOICES in life. If he hasn't changed for you when asked, then he doesn't have the will to do so. You can't help those who don't want it. But you can do whats best for you!

  • HEY LISTEN AT THE VERY VERGE OF GIVING UP IS THERE WHEN U WILL SEE THE WORK OF GOD...PPL TEND TO PRAISE AND THANK GOD ONLY WHEN THERE IS GOOD BUT WE ALSO HAVE TO THANK GOD FOR THE BAD BECUZ GOD KNOWS WHY HE HAS YOUR LIFE LIKE THAT...SURRENDER YOURSELF TO JESUS HE WILL ANSWER UR PRAYERS CHILD AND GOD NEVER GIVE YOU WHAT YOU CAN'T HANDLE ALWAYS REMEMBER HE HAS THINGS IN STORE FOR YOUR LIFE IT HAS A PURPOSE SO DONT STOP BELIEVING IN CHRIST OK.PRAYER AND ENCOURAGE THE ONES AROUND YOU TO DO THE SAME ,,,,YOU SEE ALL THOSE THINGS ARE TESTING FROM GOD...HE IS TESTING YOUR FAITH IN HIM ....PRAYER GIRL ...DO SOME FASTING ATLEAST FOR A DAY OR 12 HRS ..GOD KNOWS YOUR HEART

  • The above is signed, "The Cliche Fairy".

  • no its not! and now then, listen, God doesnt make evil, we and satan do, and God has it all happen for a reason. and without the bad, we couldnt apprreitcate the good. and also, teach your boyfriend about god and his son. and its more than believing, its knowing, feeling, and, and something else, and logic is not logical, gasps! read the Bryan Davis books! raising dragons!!! that will help. a lot. and, in a spirital way, i love you, forgive your enemies, and i am twele years old, a girl, and my life has been so bad, it makes me cry, feel all sorts of emoitions, but god fixes it. we are tto be like children, anddo children care about logic? no. and god makes me feel good and loved and happy. gotta go. battery dieing

  • The questions you raise would require pages and pages and pages to answer fairly, but here are replies to your two principal points.

    1) It is definitely not too late to end what you say is not a healthy relationship, nor to find someone who better meets your needs and beliefs: a man who is really a Christian is not going to hold your current relationship against you or avoid you because of it. Stop thinking of yourself as trapped. You aren't.

    2) God doesn't produce evil. Evil is in the world, to the extent that it is, because of man, and man's free will. He allows us to do as we choose, and our choices include love. Loving him, loving each other. So the popular criticism that "If there really WAS a God, he wouldn't allow evil" ignores our own responsibility for it.

    If your boyfriend is really a thug, or even just thuggISH, a person with your sense of propriety and understanding of religion shouldn't be with him. Go find someone who can love you: God loves you and wants you to know what love is. Or just spend some time without the need of a relationship. Either way, you're better of than you are right now.

    Best wishes.

  • Don't feel guilty about not believing in God..It's kind of ridiculous to believe in something like that anyways!

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