Wish she would have wanted to be with me.
It's been 3 years since I saw you last. I know that a lot of the time that we spent together was awkward but it was extremely special to me. I wish I could have had more courage around you to be myself but you just took that courage right out of me. I know that I was never able to really get to know you but we talked a lot. I didn't try but I fell in love with you. I tried to tell myself not to when we first met because I could tell right off the bat that it would never work between you and I. Right when I met you I thought "She has to have a boyfriend." You were so beautiful. Everything about you was beautiful, your personality and your looks. Slowly you became so important to me that I would lay down my life for you if I had to. I made many mistakes and I was in a hard time in my life; you helped me through. When you stopped talking to me after telling me that you had a boyfriend you made me hurt more than I have ever hurt before. I can't explain how much I love you and yes I still do. I know it's meaningless tell you but I feel like I just lost my future wife.