I want a baby :(
I just want to have a baby sooo badly. I fantasise all the time that I have become a teenage mother and everyone says 'gosh she's coping so well with that baby'. I wanna be pregnant, pregnant women look beautiful. I'm only 14 so obviously having a baby now would be a terrible idea, but gosh, I can't help myself fantasising!! I have planned out my future to the last detail, im gonna have 4 kids and I have already got a christening dress from a charity shop for one of my daughters. I have picked out baby names and everything. I felt my first urge to become a mother when I was 5 and I started to plan everything out when I was 11. Am I screwed up? Whenever I hear about or see someone being horrible to their kid it makes me want a child even more. Sorry, I just really needed to tell someone how I feel!!