Well basically all I am thinking about is the next time I can get drunk. The longer it is since I had a drink the more urgent this is, and the bigger my appetite for alcohol. I can stop drinking when necessary, for example on the rare occasions when I can earn money, but this just increases the amount I will drink when I get the chance.

This is like all my life since I started drinking at the age of 16 and discovered how wonderful it was. Now I am older I cannot handle the hangovers and I often think about killing myself.

Needless to say everything in my life is now f··ked up and the bank now wants me to repay what I owe, but I can't.

Jul 23, 2013

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  • Check into a 7 day detox than hit an AA meeting. The only way to stay sober is to not pickup. My thing of choice is drugs, and now I cant get drunk or smoke anything but I know I'm an addict and have no choice. It becomes a lifestyle and happiness does return. First 30 days are the hardest, if you do them you can do life
    Good luck buddy :)

  • I was addicted to alcohol when I was 18 (I'm 24 now), and for me, it was spirituality that helped me out. The point is, it's not insurmountable. You just need to find your way out, and you don't have to do it alone. There are people who can help you.

  • Join AA. Help is out there, You're not alone.

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