I guess i have lost his friendship
I am 20 y/o female. I have a friend who is very close to me. He is super cute.
And few months back he had a break up with his gf whom she loved a lot. While he was upset he was sharing his feelings with me, he told me about the times that he spent with his beloved. And he told me he misses her. I was trying to console him. Then i asked him that how far had he gone in that relationship ( i wanted to ask about his sexual relationship with that girl). He told me that they had smooched 2-3 times and had some intimate hugs and kisses but never had s**. I dont know why but hearing that made me feel happy. And strangely i started to imagine him hugging and kissing me passionately. I was talking to him and his voice made me feel hotter. I started to feel for him. And soon i was sympathetically attatched to him. His situation made me emotionally attatched to him in a different way. I used to talk to him during late hours for. And days passed by, he felt better and better. Soon he was partly through with his break up. And i started to fall for him.
I asked him to meet me at my place one day. And he came on the dot. As i opened the door, i was mermerised by his looks and his presence in front of me ( he is damn hot).
I let him in, it was just him and me in the house. We sat on the couch and began to chat. Then i got up to go to the kitchen for preparing coffee for him, he followed me, saying that he will accompany me. We both were in the kitchen and i started to prepare coffee. Then i looked into his eyes all of a sudden. And he looked at me confused. He asked me whats the matter. I told him that i was feeling a bit low and need a hug. He hugged me affectionately. And i hugged him tightly. We both were feeling good. Then he wanted to break it off but i didnt let him. I kept hugging him and started to rub his back. I was breathing heavily and he was still hugging me. He asked me if i was ok, i told him to stay quiet. Then i kissed him on his neck, he stood still. I kept kissing him and soon i reached his lips, i gave him a lip lock and tarted smooching him, he was not answering my kiss then i held him closer and held his face tightly, then he too starte answering and smooched me back. We both had a steaming hot moment. And i was wet. Then suddenly he got a bit uncomfortable and pushed me back lightly. He was breathless and was staring at me with a terrible look. He left without saying anything. Since then he is out of reach. He doesnt anwer my calls or messages. He is totally out of reach. I feel sad nad bad for my behaviour. Was i wrong?