Scared I will Never Get a White Woman Pregnant

.....have been trying to write to you for like 2 wks and this ** site is always **.....just using this as a test.....to see if i can get in. if i can i will write later today if possible. for now i'll just say my marriage is blowing up......and not in the good way......and what this lady said rite above is just about 100% correct......kinda scary that she knows so good, and in addition to how much you know.......very scary.......more later (???)

Before you hit the post button,copying your message to your browser or saving it on word may save you the aggravation of having to write it all over again. Sometimes,it takes multiple attempts to make it work. Some of us are so waiting to hear about the blow up. Good things come out of bad situations sometimes. Life is good,no matter what is happening around us.

.....am at work so don't have a lot of time...but i wanted you to know that my marriage is coming undone......its mostly my fault (except that my husband hasn't bothered to impregnate me in our 3yrs of marriage or a year before that).......and that's because i told him some lies to either make him act or to hurt him.....you aren't going to like this so i'll say i'm sorry already.............i'm sorry.......i really really am sorry.......but i told him that i met you online and then have been meeting you in person for love.....there are 4 things my husband is intimidated by and insecure about......mature men, black men, rich men and hung men.......so i told him you were all those things (but expecially super hung) and that you weren't going to let him stay with me unless he knocked me up....i told him you had been flying into our city and we had been making love at least one night each week for months....and that now you were going to start fathering children by me..........and then i told him that you made me stop taking BC and made me stopping having ** with him.......i told him i belnged to you now......and that i would soon be pregnant with the first of many many many children for you....well it didn't motivate him it just made him mad......i told him that you were one of those powerful black men who can just look at a white women and knock her white ** up.............and that i'd be carying a child for you by this summer.....if not sooner......he kicked me out the house and i been staying with a single girlfriend of mine and drinking and ** several guys.....i don't know what's going to happen......more later..gotta work

You bombed your hubby to the core by the information you told him. Believe it or not,you current status is not all you fault. Four years of agony,anticipation,longing, and craving,without any quencher on sight, is hard for anybody to take. From what you have told here,you were at a breaking point, and something had to happen urgently. The promiscuity may not auger well for you however.You have to stop that and get your emotions sorted out before you get a bad disease or get knocked up, and have a baby with a guy who may turn out to be emotionally worse than hubby. But whether your break-up came today, or next week, or next year,is not the point.The point is that the action was impending, and it was just a matter of time. If you find happiness and satisfaction in the near future by having invoked my name,I will be so delighted-no marriage that I know of(other than yours and mine)has ever broken up because of me.Anxiety is a marriage killer. Here are some quotes by Anais Nin that may sooth your body and mind; "Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country","How wrong it is for a woman to expect the man to build the world she wants, rather than to create it herself", "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom", "Dreams are necessary to life" "Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage","People living deeply have no fear of death"... If you think about it,all those statements apply to you and your situation. Trust in God and your capabilities,and believe it or not,all these will pass and you shall overcome, emerging happier,stronger,multiplied. I am sending you my hugs and appreciating your courage.