Have to start with something...

That I have so many problems, and things on my head, and thoughts in the air.. that it is almost impossible to start with something.. anything at all...
I'm a 40 year old male, single, college degree, decent economic range with a solid paycheck.. but I am still missing something. I do not know what... I don't even know if it is a thing or a purpose or a new phone... I am really confused.. but I have to start at the beginning...
I'm an only child, that is of my parent's marriage.. they got divorced and married once again, giving me four siblings... on obviously two separated families.. and coping with that is not easy, considering they ended their marriage in a not so friendly manner. In fact, they never spoke again, having me as the only link between them.. I don't even have a picture of the three of us together..
I lived with my mom all my childhood, under the caring and nurturing of my grandmother, since my mom had to work two shifts to put food on the table.. Never saw my father until I was a teenager.. and even so was for very short periods of time, two weeks at most, every summer... School was torture, considering I was a very shy child, bordering on isolation.. never had a true friend on that period, from kindergarden to middle school and well into high school..
That is the way I grew up.. and something in the way went wrong.. really wrong.. and I can't find the right way.. More on the next confession...

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  • U need p**** man

  • Ur just fuckd up lots are nobodys fault

  • I agree ur a wet blanket

  • Try God. Seek inward you just might find what you are looking for.

  • Ur to far gone 4 god

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