I was once a believer in god. for me all religions are same.. they teach us to be human and be the best person in all situations of our life.
I have done everything that my parents wanted, religiously. But for some reason.. I have always been disappointed by my life .. I have always been the person that would help people in need and even then when I need something to go right in my life..things just never fall in the right place at the right time.. I m told that god has something better but other than disappointment i have never got anything else.
And when i tell this to anyone they want me to go back to believing in God.. How can I .. When I believed and things never went the way they should have or neither got better...
I M angry because my parents are getting old and hate seeing them working hard to help support me.. when it should be the other way round... I m certain that I m very close to losing my faith and respect for god.. But I dont want that to happen.. I just want things to be right... they way I want.. and my dreams are not big.. they are practical ..one job..that would pay well to my exp... its not like asking for a million dollar lottery! I have worked hard.. I m working hard... I m to a point where i m getting exhausted.