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When is it my turn?
So once again my fiance is allowed to live out her dreams while I take a job that will make me miserable. She had a panic attack because the job she had was 'too stressful' and ended up leaving after four days while everyone around her told her 'if it's not the right fit leave'. Meanwhile we have no money of our own, (I do not have a job yet because all of my time has been spent driving her ** EVERYWHERE) and now, after her therapy today she's told to 'drop the ball' on the job she told me she would go back to because it causes her anxiety. I'm about to take a job at a restaurant pretty much EXACTLY like the one I worked at for over two years that put me into such a state of depression that I nearly killed myself, simply so we can have money. Meanwhile she's being told to go apply at haunted houses where she can pursue her passion. We've been together seven years and five of those were with her in college which I worked ** jobs the WHOLE time with the deal that once she was done SHE would work while I went to school. But I keep forgetting. I don't get to have my dream.
I can relate, I was gonna figure my ** out when my husband got a full time teaching job, but the economy was ** so he gave up on that and worked at a bank. Now he's finally back to pursuing teaching, but now at this point I don't have any motivation left to do my own **.