I want to be spanked
I have frequent cravings to be spanked. I have had this urge since I was a child. My mom used to spank me and although I hated it, sometimes I had this weird feeling that I wanted it. Sometimes I would do bad things so that she would. As I got older, I liked to see movies that had spanking scenes or books that had whippings in them. I never told anyone.
Now I'm an adult and the urge has not gone away. I write spanking stories and watch videos of women being paddled. It makes me throb with jealousy and need. On the outside I seem perfectly normal, very boring and conservative actually. No one who knows me suspects that I have these weird fantasies. There is just something in me that craves punishment and it won't go away.
I just really want to meet someone who is man enough to sweep me off my feet ---- and bend me over for a good paddling. I want to be spanked to tears. I want to feel my ass grow hotter and hotter until it gets too hot for me to sit down. I don't want to play silly games with chains and gags and things like that. I just want to be made to bend over for the longest paddling of my life.