Watching My Hymen Get Shredded
When I was 16 years old I had a 15 year old boyfriend and we were starting to get "serious." We progressed from "making out" to petting. I had seen his hardon - my first -- and stroked it with my hand. He had unfastened my bra, touched my b******, and kissed them as well. I remember when I was 16 I used to pretty much only wear bras that fastened in the front. It was a little challenging for him to unhook them. Believe me, he learned! He was starting to "go down my pants" when we made out. He'd unbutton my jeans and slide his hand down into the front of my panties. He'd rub the hair between my legs and touch my c***. It was a little scary, but felt good. I started spreading my legs for him when he'd go down my pants so he could push his hand deeper. He'd started to rub my p**** lips with his fingers and I'd get wet. He'd put his fingers between my lips and it felt good. Finally, one day, he pushed a finger inside of me. It surprised me and kind of hurt. When I was 16 I used tampons, but other than that, nothing had ever been "up there" before - no other guys, no doctor's exams. He could tell his finger hurt me so he stopped. We started doing this whenever we'd make out and it got easier and easier for him to push his finger deeper and deeper into me. I really started to enjoy it and I'd get so wet when he'd finger me. I got close to having an o***** on his finger a few times. I started looking down at his hand when he'd pull it out of my panties and I'd see my wetness all over his fingers and I'd see little delicate bits of skin also. At the time, I didn't really know what that was. Looking back, I know now it was little tiny bit of my hymen starting to come off as he'd stretch and finger me "down there." I must have had a pretty thick and closed hymen as a girl. He eventually fingered me enough to where it stopped hurting and only felt good. Soon after that this guy fully deflowered me with his p****. Susan F.