I took a handful of pills again.
My mother physically and emotionally abused me since I can remember. My father never knew, he had secrets of his own.
I married twice to two men I never loved. The current one noticed I'm an easy target and has always abused me verbally.
I don't love my siblings. I don't even know them. I don't know anyone in my family.
I've loved too much and received nothing. 40 years thru my own barren desert.
Run from those who don't love you. Even if no one doesn't. Run. Pack only what you'll need and pick a direction. Start walking and never turn back. Just run. There's no love anywhere. Nor hope. Just survive. If that's what you want. If not, I'll see you on the other side.