Hammer

That I have physically hurt a vulnerable and innocent person throughout his adolescence on so many occasions throughout my childhood that I can't even remember how many times I've done it. I recall digging my nails into him to stop him from leaving the room.Grabbing his wrist. Trying to strangle him whilst drunk in order to shut him up. He is an adult older than me now but mentally vulnerable as a small child. I am evil. Pure f****** evil although I carry the guilt the guilt I can never ever shed it is not enough. It doesn't matter that I was a child too or that I was drunk or that it was many years ago I want to bludgeon myself with a hammer so can make myself good. I deserve to be torn apart made to face the pain and destruction I caused. I should be stepped on and wiped off someone's shoe. I deserve to be dead rather than carry the shame of my mistakes.

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  • Your next life you'll probably be a goat in Kuwait - good luck with that!

  • I hate people like you who hurt the weaker vulnerable

  • I did pretty much the same thing to a younger pest when I was twelve years old. He was five years younger than I was and I didn't want him around. I pushed him around pretty bad trying to make him go home.

    Now that I'm an old man I regret doing what I did.

    Looking him up I found out he was retired from a great company and was living happily among his children, wife and grandchildren.

    Hopefully he's forgotten I ever existed.

  • Unfortunately,when a person has traumatised you in some way,within my opinion and experience,you never forget it!!
    Sorry man,your conscience will never be free.But I think you know that!! We all have regrets and sins to live with! :)

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